In the next couple of days I will be working on new goals for 2011 since my last set of goals are no longer relevant. I will also likely shed several pounds this week from water, blood, and tissue loss. Not everything about this is negative though. I have the opportunity to continue losing weight now which will make for a much healthier pregnancy next time around, and of course, a much healthier me. It will also allow me more time to prepare emotionally for another baby. This trip down to Texas showed me just how stressed out I am and I do not think my mental condition would have allowed me to be the best mom I could be to Little Bit and Pumpkin at the same time.
I will be putting my pregnancy blog on hold but I will not be deleting it. I'll be coming back to it next time we are expecting since I believe that a pregnancy is a pregnancy, despite which fetus is growing into a baby. I don't know if this baby will be waiting to meet me in the end, or if it will be coming back to me as the next pregnancy, but either way, it is not lost.
I'll be back to normal posting in a few days I bet. I am still a bit sad, as to be expected, but because I can see the positives in this miscarriage, I am healing much faster than before. I know God was in this plan. See you soon, and thanks again for your loving support.